Girls night in
Tell me you are a millennial young woman without telling me you're a millennial young woman. I'll go first: I love hardwood French-inspired flooring, side parts on my hair, recently rewatched all of Sex and the City, and swear by Tarot games.
Last night, a dear childhood friend of mine texted me saying she misses me and that she wanted to have me over for dinner. She had also invited another friend of ours to watch a movie but said that if I wanted to play some Tarot cards, I could come in a bit earlier. And so I did. My game was laid out in front of us and it gave me a sense of calm and relief, that I was on the right track, even with all of the insecurities and fears for the future.
So, do I believe in Tarot as a prediction of my future? Not necessarily. I certainly don't believe a random set of cards made by people centuries before me would have the power to bend and twist my fate like that. And for me, that is true for most religions out there as well, but I digress.
It does help me make sense of my feelings, thoughts, and fears. Although I don't necessarily believe the cards hold other-worldly powers, I do think there is a lot of thought behind how the game was created, the meaning of the cards, their names, their art, and how we play them.
What does a Tarot game have to do with how I want my life to look like, you may ask?
Well, it reminded me of lessons I learned, gave me the confidence to take the next steps I was planning, and made me reflect on my fear of failure, scarcity mindset, unconscious self-hatred, and the potential I know I have within me. A lot of it had to do with well-thought-out next steps, inner and outer abundance and wealth, and the need for change.
There is one exercise I love doing from time to time, and that I actually did here on the blog once. I like to write what I want my life to look like as if I'm already living it. What are the feelings and thoughts I have, what's my vibe like, if I feel grounded, if that scenario serves me.
Right after my Tarot game was laid out, a lot of that started coming into my mind, along with a sense of excitement and calm. So, here's what I want my life to look like, based on my last Tarot game:
Manifesting what I want my life to look like
I still remember that night at my friend's house, right after I quit my job at the European agency I was working for. I remember being so sure I wanted to quit but felt so nervous about not having any tangible alternatives at that point.
I'm so happy I did it, though. I had some time to rest and regroup, but also to dedicate myself to my own shop. I'm actually impressed by how much I learned in such a short amount of time. Not just about the technical side of an e-commerce, but also about running a business. Having the workaholic tendencies I have, my days are pretty full still, but the joy I get knowing I'm building a business by myself is incredible.
Having actual, real flexibility in my day-to-day helps me a ton with work-life balance, so I'm still working a ton, but it feels much healthier now.
The store is going well and although we didn't make much during the first few months, just enough to cover my living expenses and put a bit on savings, we are now doing much better. The store grew a lot since we first started it and I even got some close friends and family to help out part-time.
I'm still in the market for another job, though. My Colombian friend is helping a ton and I have several interviews lined up. Being in contact with people from other countries and speaking other languages is a part of my recent work life I don't want to give up, but I'm not in a hurry either.
My blog is still my creative escape-zone and although the initial plan for it didn't work as intended, traffic has been increasing month after month. I switched my whole view for it and if it's meant to be, I'll be able to make some cash from it one day, but I cherish it as my online diary of sorts and my creative outlet.
My partner is still working a ton on the road and we saw much more of our beautiful country, although I much prefer the states closer to both of our hometowns.
I'm still in contact with the owner of the not-so-small fashion company I worked for before the Danish agency and we've been working together on a very cool couple of projects. I see so much potencial in it.
Finally, our current house is so beautiful. Although the inner space isn't as big, we have a lovely shared lawn and much outdoor space at the back of the house, so our dog is free to roam around and spend as much energy as she wants.
I'll return in a few months to tell you how much of it became part of my life.
X.O.
IAS
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